Once again I update you all then disappear….need to be more on my game.
Its been 7 months now since my operation and I’m 120 lbs down…..which is wild to me. This is me not doing exercise either. I’ve been trying to work on my food as that was the main issue before surgery so i need to get that right.
I’ve been focusing on having protein but not gonna lie its been hard. Sometimes protein does not like me, at the moment i struggle with meatballs, its like my stomach goes hell nah every time I eat one, but i leave it and try again another time.
I am in a group on the Facebook with people asking questions and sharing their journey whether it be good or bad, and all can say is WOW. The judgement on these posts is wild. People who are having or had the surgery wanting a little advice or help and other people just being rude as hell. I’m happy i have this little website to share my journey (when i remember to write). Its a judgement free zone.
I have also noticed I can walk a lot more than I could before which is good as I don’t drive, so walking to a bus stop or train station has become a lot easier. I went to London couple months ago and I walked all over with my friends without needing to stop and rest, it was a BIG non scale victory.
It has been a wild ride so far. I think the BIGGEST things i have noticed is that I am less tired when i walk around. I avoided going upstairs on the bus because I just felt too fat and tired, now I go upstairs all the time. Being tall is still an issue so the legs are tight.
People have commented on my weight loss, but I think I am definitely suffering with body dysmorphia as I don’t see the difference at all. I still feel I look the same even though I’ve lost over 100 lbs and clothes fill better. I wonder if that will change? Maybe i should have taken pictures to compare to but i hate taking selfies so i didn’t.
Taking vitamins etc is a real challenge. I try everyday to remember but its hard, especially when you have to taken Iron and Calcium different times a day as they effectively cancel each other out. Steak and cheesy mash just seems like a redundant meal now.
The one thing I have noticed is about the sex life. I am single -ish. And previously I would talk to someone then I wouldn’t talk anymore because I always felt too fat, but now I’m willing to go and meet people which is a complete 180. We goes direct;y against my feeling of my body being the same, so HOW DOES THAT WORK?
Anyway this is the update. Its big but not so big. Just living and vibing mostly. Still not exercising though, which means I most likely will be getting saggy skin but we will see.
Anyway, peace out
Cherelle x